I'm gonna get a little womanly so if there are any men that read this blog you might want to skip this post.
So I think it is cruel that for me, the symptoms for a period are the same as the symptoms of pregnancy except with pregnancy, they are more intense. I was feeling a few of these symptoms more intense last week and got to thinking that maybe this month I could finally be pregnant again. Come April 1st, my monthly friend came for a visit. Cruel indeed! It's been almost a year since our miscarriage and I'm still not pregnant and with how long we've been trying, I'm about 99.9% sure that we won't be having anymore kids (at least I think that is what Heavenly Father has planned for us) but I seem to always have that little bit of hope which usually ends up kicking me in the rear. So frustrating! And by frustrating I mean my inability to accept things as they are. Some days/months I do good but others....
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I totally know what you mean. I had given up the possibility of ever getting pregnant, but God has some tricks up his sleeve. :) Keep trying and stay positive!
Oh Karen, I didn't know all that. That must be really difficult and I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Keep your chin up though because I have sister in laws who try for a while too. You really never know what God has planned for you. The hard part though is the patience and acceptance of that isn't it. I'll be praying for you.
Yeah I miscarried 6 months ago and was sure that I'd be pregnant by now. No such luck. I expect to start any day. I already know 4 people due this year. I hate it when you get your hopes up and then they are dashed. It is the WORST feeling ever. I don't know why Heavenly Father would send EIGHT children to a single crazy woman on food stamps in CA when she already has six other kids and He won't send any to our families. What is wrong? I don't really try to get pregnant anymore. It's too disappointing. Besides they say that you get pregnant when you're "not trying." Right. Hasn't worked yet.
That's got to be disappointing, I'm so sorry. On the upside though, you've got three GREAT kiddos and I've always looked up to you as a mom. Three kids for us is my limit and sometimes I feel a little guilty that I'm not a better mom to handle more.
That's just mean! I hate April 1st!
My sister-in-law is going through the same thing (but they don't have any kids, and it's been 6 years). And it's the same kind of feeling--as if the period itself weren't bad enough, you're heartbroken on top of it! :( So sorry.
I continue to pray for you and Harmony. I put your names on the temple prayer rolls. I wish that I could give you some of my Tryon fertility and even carry the babies for you because pregnancies are so difficult. But most of all, I wish I could somehow comfort your broken hearts.
It's more than frustrating, Karen and Harmony. Please don't give up faith and trust that Father hears and has a plan. He loves you.
I am Lacie's sister--and she told me to check out your blog because I am going through the same thing. (I have one daughter-got pregnant right away, and have been trying for #2 for about 3 years). I did get pregnant on clomid and then had a miscarriage. I agree it is mean! plus you would think that after this long I would stop getting my hopes up and realize it isn't going to happen without some fertility help ...I have given up charting etc, but still almost every month --something happens that makes me think "Well, maybe..." For me it is different each month, feeling sick, or being tired, early spotting, and one month I was even 5 days late...rude! I really don't want my daughter to be an only child, I will keep crossing my fingers, it is especially hard when about 15 of my friends are pregnant LOL! A friend told me there are acupuncturists who specialize in infertility...i am not a fan of needles, but apparently they have had good results. Good luck :-)
So sorry to hear that. I can understand the frustration. It was hard for me to accept I was pregnant because I didnt want it to not be real. I will keep you in my prayers.
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